“…Well, my sister, keep quiet for now, since he’s your brother. Don’t you worry about it.” So Tamar lived as a desolate woman in her brother Absalom’s house. –2 Samuel 13:20 NLT
Ask God to heal your heart from the things that you have been trying to hide from Him and others.
Pray that the Holy Spirit will give you the courage to speak to someone about past hurts.